tunggu...

wait for someone to be wit us..
hard moment to wait..

i cry at nite and hurt deep inside..
y people around us want to separate us up..
y they did't want to see we happy..
wat i'm doin to them??
wat i say to them??
did i disturb they life??
did i took they life??
but y??y??


i hurt very very much..
they dun noe wat i'm feel..
nobody noe..juz me n myself..
y they did't understand me..??
is it coz my fault??
i dun noe..
myb yes to them..juz i'm blind bout that..

sometime feel like life is empty
feel like we juz walk alone..
even many people want to be beside us..
but still alone..
they juz want wat they want
want us to make them happy
but our heart??
who care??
who make us happy??
who beside me when i'm crying??
who beside me when i in hard moment??
who beside me when i'm scared??
who beside me when i injured??
people juz selfish..
but they did't realize that..
juz blame others..
juz mad to others..
they did't see wat they do..

walking alone..
sleep alone..
eat alone..
juz better than want people to accompany u..
we care they feel like a gold..
but them juz make us fool around..
i hate but i must to love them..
must...

it is my fault make them hurt..
i try to accompany them..
but i have a lot to do..
i must focus on my exam..
i mst stadi for my future..
i dun want juz depend on them..
i want my thing by my own money..
i shy wit them..
i hurt......

now..i'm realy feel alone..
i have nobody to talk about..
i dun noe where to go..
i scared of them..
i cry as much i can..
to make me feel better..
i juz no way to go..
and no one to talk..
i miss them a lot..
but them dun want accompany me..
they dun want listen to me..
they think i'm little..
i'm nothing..
i'm stupid..

yes i'm all of that..

wat my destiny??
i dun noe..
where my partner????
i dun noe who..
wat my finish..
i think dead juz waiting for me..
i juz can pray to HIM...
i juz got HIM..
i accompany by HIM..
syukur padamu Ya Allah..

i juz waiting..
i'm weak..i can't fight..
i can't be a forgetfull..
i juz can hear..
i juz can hold..
i juz can stand..
n hurt by my self..
cry by myself..
alone wit myself..

i'm very hurt now........
i juz can cry n say to myself...

i Love them so much..
l dun want to hurt them anymore..
i can't.....

ZULVA.com - emo

naPe eh?

hurm...it wasn't me..
nape erk..owg xleh change tuk sumthg yg dye bebetul need it..
gurl mmg amik hal bab remeh neh..
tp kdg2 sume nie penting gak..
tringin nk ade owg jage ati kite
tp lastly kne jage sendiri

dh ati kite kne la jage sendiri kn..ingt umah ke kene ade guard nk jage..

where ever u are...
still remember every minutes..
ayat2 neh nk wat tenang ati jer..

kalu boy yg ckp la..
tp kalu gurl yg ckp of coz she mean it..

huhu...per la ku merepek neh..
nk sedapkn ati jer sbnrnyew
..haha..
papai...hihi..

saPe kate??

kata mak,
KAWAN tu ibarat lebah,
habis madu sepah dibuang.......

kata abah,
KAWAN tu umpama bunga ros,
dipandang cantik dipegang
sakit.....

kata atuk,
KAWAN tu seperti air
terus mengalir.....

kata nenek,
KAWAN tu bak bulan
dipuja dan disanjung tp nun jauh
di
sana....

kate sedare,
kawan tu mcm makanan,
kawan makan kawan!!

kata abang,
KAWAN tu seperti lembu
mengikut saje ape dikata........

kata kakak,
KAWAN tu tak ubah macam
durian
bau je busuk tp sedap dimakan....

kata adik,
KAWAN tu macam biskut
sekejap ade sekejap takde.......


kata aku,
kawan tu tak kisahlah camner..
walaupun dia
IBARAT LEBAH,
UMPAMA BUNGA ROS,
SEPERTI AIR,
BAK BULAN,
SEPERTI LEMBU,
TAK UBAH MACAM DURIAN
&
MACAM
BISKUT!!!

dia tetap kawan...
tau tak sebab ape???
sekali aku dah kawan ngan dia
selamanye dia ttp kawan aku...
itu cara aku berkawan..!!

so kawan la selagi kite mampu berkawan...

maSa LamPau...

budak2 yg lahir pd thn 80 n 90an mesti ingat
mase skola rendah dulu:

- kat skola ade salesman jual buku
cerita.


ari ni bg list, esok mintak duit
beli walaupun cerita buku tu dah tau.


salesman susu pon camtu gak.



- kat library, budak2 mmg baca buku tp
just tengok gamba je.


bile ade program
Nilam, sebok semua nak pinjam buku.



- RMT kat skola mkn x best, tp yg
berduit pon join RMT, x phm....


- pakai pensel box yg bole bukak dpn
blkg, pastu ade sharpener kat tgh2 die.



- main lwn pemadam, syg nak guna utk
padam.



padahal itu fungsi sbnr, utk padam!
- pakai pembaris yg bergerigi, kat dlm
ade air pastu ade bende berkilat dlm air tu.


- cikgu pakai pembaris kuning pjg.

Ade
pemegang kat tgh2 tp x penah nmpk cikgu
pgg pon kat situ.



- bulu ayam jd ramping krn sering
dijadikan rotan.



- time pendidikan seni, lukis sume boleh
tp bile time kaler sume hampeh.


ade gak
buat anyaman pakai kertas warna, kolaj
la, ape la...
- main game 2D.


super contra, super
mario, street fighter, sume pakai tape.


- jam tgn Boy London jd idaman, sbb bole
tuka2 kaler ikut suhu n cuaca.


- takut BCG tp lepas inject poyo la pulak...

- balik skola beli JoJo xpon Dendang.


Tora pon best gak.


Beli se mata2 nak
mainan, coklat die x mkn pon.


- Kasut berlampu kat tapak, yg iklan die
kat tV bole tembak alien tu...

- Siri kartun; power rangers, ultraman,
transformers, ninja turtles, dragon ball,
Thundercats, maskman, Gaban dan mcm lg.



jgn lupe sume ni sbb zaman skrg budak2 x
smpt lyn bende2 ni.



kite akan sentiasa
berubah, cume asal-usul kite yg
permanent.

hehe..so syukur coz kita di lahirkan mase teknologi xbekembang lagi..
so kite xla ter jebak dgn golongan yg ske mkn sampah tue..
layannnnn

nOveL jiwanG karaT 30 inch..

aha...
sape suh ajar aq jinak2 wif dis blog kn dh terlayan neh..haha..
actually smlm tydo smpi 3 pagy taw coz nk edit blog baruku neyh..
lastly ciap mcm per jew..tah pape lew yg ku wat neh..
stadi ke mane tah..lari merajukn diri kowt..
buku2 sume dh terase tuh..waiting 4 moment dat i want to open them..
xpe xpe sayangku sume..sat lagi mama dtg open ur guys okeh..
so tuk menjaga ati ke semua buku2 kesygkn ku tue..saye tlh berazam tinggi tuk open them tommorow...
i'm promise..hehe..neva break it keh..
hehe..smlm mentol ku menyala kat otak neh..dat mean terfikir sumthing la..haha..
lyke my mum said "selamat pandai-pandai"..haha,ayat baru taw babe..
sy rase nk jwb exam bebtoi dis tyme coz nk duk kusi depan mase konvo nnti..
hopefully tercapai la azam neh..
i can do...
i will do..
so sy dh amik kepuTusan tuk xlyn sesape yg akn mengundang jiwa kekacauan nnti..
hehehe..tp sape2 yg wat ati ku berlari dlm taman..sy layannnnnn jer..haha..
actually dlm 3 5 2 4 ari neh..ku and kwn shengal ku tuh..duk mengadap laptop neh 20 jam kowt..
so bile mase nk selak kertas2 putih yg berconteng nota2 tuh..
tp lilek la coz kitowg dh reBus dh sume buku tuk minum tyme exam nnti...heh heh..
kalu mati xde insurance wo....
nie sume intenet pnyer psal..
sape suh laju sgt kn kitOwg xstadi...
sape suh besh sgt kn kitowg dh melekat kat laptop neh..
hahaha...
p/s:tabiat owg kita suke mencari mangsa keadaan ^_^

sowey erk wireless ku...
t aq kutuk2 dye merajuk plak...kang susah plak nk on9
hahahaha....

aq sebenarnyew no idea nk merepek neh..
tp coz kecian plak tgk blog neh mcm dinding umah kosong jer..
so sy wat la vandalisme sket..hehe..

nk cite ag neyh..
lagi beberape ari jew sy nk bercuti n far away from my lovely book tue..
tp b4 tue kne g beperang dl..
xsabar dh nk msuk dewan neyh..excited!
balik umah nnti nk makan bnyk bnyk bnyk...
lame dh xrase mskn pn.Salmah tue..
ade ker ari 2 aq baru nk suap naci msuk mlut ku yg kecik neh..
hpoNe wanGy ku menyanyi plak..
tgk2 my V.V.I.P col
V.V.I.P = my mum la...
ade ker dye tepon semate-2 mate nk tanye aq..
"mak ade beli udang neh..rase2 kamu nk masak ape yer udang neh?"
pergh.....aq dh semakin lapar dan kebulur..
dh la aq antue seafOod di laUtan luas tuh...xcePt fisH jew la xmkn..kakaka...
pas tue..aq ckp la "nape mak nk anta sinie ker?"
Pn.saLmah tue pown berkate-kate"xla..ma saje nk gtaw kamu,mak msak udang ari nie..tetibe jer teringat ke kamu..hehehe.."
sejUk gak ati aq dgr V.V.I.P neh ckp cenggitu...tp yg xsejuk tuh..ade ker pas tgk udang baru teringat kat aq..
ade muke udang ker aq neyh...huhuhu....
xpew la...syUkur la dye ade gak ingat kat aq kn kn...aminnn...

xabIs cite ag neYh...
aq barU terjeBak dlm tabiat owg zaman skunk...
nk dekat2 abis sem neyh la..sume owg duk begadOh jer.
krisIs sane..krisis sini..dh mcm parlimen plak..
myB nk suh diowg neyh bertukar2 kengkwn kot..
bagUih jgk cm tue kn...dpt tmbh list kengkwn kat profile idup diowg tue..
seB bek la aq dpt maintaIn repUtasi gan keNgkwn kat siNie...
aq dan kwn serOOmate ku neh..
dye ade gak mara kat aq ari tue...cuak babe...
aq dh xtenteram dh...juz can say sorrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyy jew..
hehehe...seb bek la ati dye tuh bebunga matahari kowt...
blik2 jer cenyum jer...lega ati aq yg dh nk pecah tuh..haha...
god bless me la..kalu ma aq taw aq beperang gan kwn2 kat sinie..
dye mmg mrh gler r aq gadoh..
coz dl dh ade recOrd gado gan dak skuLah tue...
f/n:gado mulut jew erk...aq menang la..haha..

hehehehe....truk btoi zaMan seniOr kn kn..

cOntinue blik pasal rUmet aq tuh...
dh baPe owg yg raBun kate kitOwg neh kembar maLaysia...bkn siam jer ade kembar erk..
haha..
tp kitowg tgk sendiri fizIkal masIng2 mcm tedy bear gan twitty jer..hahaha...
tp kalu tgk Mental plak mcm upin gan ipin ade gak...kikiki...
tp xkesaH la..ape powN ade gak owg yg peraSan kehadiRan kitowg kat U neyh..
dat mean kitowg dh ade fan clUb sediri la..huhu..perasaN sikit jer xsaLah kn kn..

msuk bab laen plak neh...
ari tue bersamaan 10 april 2009..ma aq tePOn ag..
dh la tyme tue dlm cLass macrOeconomy..nk jwb test plak tuh..
aq pown laYan la cecepat..
dye juz gtaw kat aq "arini burfday abg ijan,kitowg bli kek cokelat taw..kamu jer xde kat sinie..ma blikn dye jam ROLEX.."
fuhhh....itulah ma aq yg ske menguji mental aq yg xtertahan dgn benda2 materialistik neh...
mane aci!!!...urmm...aci dh g mekkah msuk islam kowt..huhu..
dh xdpt jilat pinggan kek cokelat n then jam rolex plak tuh mamat tu dpt..
jelez neh...tulah owg ske cemburu membuta walaupun mate dh celik..
xpe xpe...t burfday aq kalu diowg xingt ciap la..
aq baling tepung kat muke sengsowg....hahahaha....jd evil kejap..

p/s: 09.09.09 dun 4 get taw my burfday...

xde adiah pown xpew la....terima seadanyerr..
juz wish n doa restu cukup bagiku...ceh ceh..membawa diri plak..
okeh la..stOp dl kat seneyh..t aq merepek aq dh jd novel bersiri siri plak..haha...
kowg g mkn dl..dh taw musti lapaq pnyer kn kn...itu adelah slh satu strategy marketing aq tuk menarik customer dari gen Y..haha...sape dh blaja marketing taw la istilah tue.. ^__^

f/n:sesape yg bace kemerapuanku neyh..kowg sume adalah owg2 yg cute bangat..
hahahaha... ^_^

muLe..mUle..

urm

...nak tulih per neh..
mule..mule nk habaq..shaye bru wat blog neh...
hahaha...mengarut jerk..
mule..mule nk cite td bru pas mkn kfc..
n then..
mule..mule nk gtaw saye xske sgt merepek kalu rajin ade la kowt..
dh lame xwat karangan..mase skul pown bm dpt b jer..haha..
xpe..xpe..t saye cite panjang2 okeh..
tuk keselamatan n safety...
sila lah comment and lawat blog yg xseindah blog owg laen tuh..
huhuhu..
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